Archive for the ‘Pain’ Category

Connecting Through Pain

Posted: 18th March 2012 by Duality in Dynamics, Pain

There’s a certain perspective that you get when you deal with pain every day.  It kind of throws you off into another world almost where people try to imagine what kind of pain you are in and can’t.  And I used to be in that other world.  I’d see someone in obvious pain and say [...]


Posted: 4th December 2011 by Duality in Pain, What's Happening

My nervous system isn’t wired right.  Its just one of the many joyous things wrong with my body.  The vast majority of the time it takes the form of amplifying pain or causing my muscles to knot up in my back and neck.  On occasion it will cause anxiety.  And once every couple of months [...]

Pain Is Relative

Posted: 29th October 2011 by Duality in Pain

We are all wired differently.  Its why some people think bleu cheese is tasty and people like me think its one of the more vile concoctions God ever allowed  to be created on Earth.  When you get right down to it, pain is the same way.  Everyone feels pain differently.  Grace can get off on it.  I [...]

How I Approach Sadism

Posted: 26th September 2011 by Duality in Dynamics, Pain, Scenes

I’m not a sadist.  I don’t like pain… really at all.  Like I’ve said before, I deal with it enough during the day to bring it with me to something I want to enjoy.  Grace, on the other hand, loves pain.  Well, to a point she does.  You would think it would be difficult to [...]

Stupid Doms

Posted: 24th September 2011 by Duality in Pain

So I’ve been dealing with an inflammation breakout the past couple of days.  Just a lot of body parts telling me, “Nope, not happening” in painful, painful ways.  As I have explained before, my body is my own Dom.  And its a sadist.  I get zero pleasure from it and I believe it prefers it [...]

The Wall

Posted: 19th September 2011 by Duality in Dynamics, Pain

Both Grace and I have talked about building a wall against pain.  We both build them, but that’s about the only similarity between the two.  They both have different structures, different strengths, different weaknesses, and really different purposes.  But because we both build them, we understand each other better for it.  Once again, that duality [...]

The Autumn Wind Is A Pirate

Posted: 15th September 2011 by Duality in History, Pain

The title is from a poem that Steve Sabol wrote for NFL films.  When read by the late, great John Facenda it was pure magic.  Its this time of year that makes me think of the poem, and for what I’ve lost along the way.  I used to love playing football.  Loved it.  I was [...]

Real Punishment

Posted: 20th August 2011 by Duality in History, Pain, Scenes

When you’re dealing with a sub you have “punishment” and Punishment.  The “punishment” usually gets the sub off and is part of a scene.  Its that daily need a sub like Grace feels to have her body punished in some way.  That type is enjoyable.  But Punishment with the capital “P” is something all together [...]

The warm and fuzzy post

Posted: 18th August 2011 by Duality in Pain, warm fuzzies

I realize that just reading a few entries paints a rather dark picture of myself.  It would be easy to deduce that my life is either about having or giving pain.  Or maybe about the fear of having too much anger and frustration running through me.  Its not always like that.

Pain as a blanket

Posted: 18th August 2011 by Duality in Dynamics, Pain

I don’t pretend to know the exact feelings a sub has when they are in pain.  I know some surface feelings, sure.  But the exact place their mind goes is not something I can probably easily comprehend.  Pain to them is something jarring.