Archive for February, 2012

A Visit to Submission

Posted: 29th February 2012 by Duality in Dynamics

Sleep and I aren’t the best of friends at the moment.  I’ve got a couple of things going on and they aren’t a quick fix.  One, I had to get off my old antidepressant and start up a new one.  That’s never an easy transition regardless of the medications.  On top of that I’ve apparently [...]

Sadism

Posted: 28th February 2012 by Duality in Dynamics

I was raised by a very proper Southern woman who taught me how to be a “good boy”.  And one of the things you do as a good boy is never, ever, ever hit a woman.  You see where this is going considering the nature of the blog.  As Grace and I enter into this [...]

Slow It Down

Posted: 21st February 2012 by Duality in What's Happening

Not much to post about today other then what I’m doing to Grace this week.  With all the stress she’s been under, I decided to scale back her tasks.  She did not immediately appreciate this fact largely because she didn’t see where I had scaled things back from.  I invited her to compare and contrast [...]

Relief

Posted: 19th February 2012 by Duality in Scenes, What's Happening

Changing anti-depressants is not a pleasant experience.  Your body and to a degree your emotions get out of whack for a bit and its easy to see situations and build them into bigger things then they really are.  I suspect I’ve done that a lot the last couple of weeks with Grace.  Because of my history with [...]

Upon Further Review

Posted: 17th February 2012 by Duality in What's Happening

Having had enough of the whole not being able to orgasm thing, I decided to do some research into the medication I was taking.  It seems Zoloft is pretty infamous for this little side effect.  So at least I know exactly what is going on instead of just largely suspecting it.  And there are some [...]

Frustrating

Posted: 16th February 2012 by Duality in What's Happening

I really hate switching my medications around.  Especially the ones that either screw with mood or the ones designed to calm my nerve endings down so they aren’t firing off so damn much.  It takes awhile for the old drug to get out of my system and the new drug to fully establish itself enough [...]

Aftercare

Posted: 15th February 2012 by Duality in Scenes

Kind of continuing with “What I learned from the flogging” stream of thought here.  What you need to understand is that when its done right, the submissive really doesn’t have any idea just how much actual damage is being done to them during the flogging.  Oh sure, there’s pain.  And there will be pain that [...]

More on the Flogging

Posted: 14th February 2012 by Duality in Scenes

So remember when I had trouble sleeping?  Well that problem got solved.  The pendulum has swung to the other extreme now and I’m hoping I’m just catching up on sleep and adjusting to new medications because sleeping 9 to 10 hours a night plus a 3 to 5 hour “nap” during the day is getting [...]

Flogging

Posted: 13th February 2012 by Duality in Scenes

Hmm.  So where exactly to begin with this?  Today was the day where the local Dom came over with her bag of toys to allow us to sample and see what we thought of them.  The focus today was on floggers.  She had an entire suitcase full of floggers.  From the duct tape kind all [...]

Sleep Broken, But Fixed

Posted: 11th February 2012 by Duality in What's Happening

Sleep had become a very large problem for me.  It would take me forever to get to sleep and even when I did pass out from exhaustion I’d sleep about five hours.  It started sometime around the operation, but I dismissed it as, you know, being part of the re-cooperation process.  But things got progressively worse, [...]