Senior moment

Posted: 25th August 2011 by Duality in Dynamics, Scenes

So Grace was being bratty and I decided I was going to break her.  Its a fun game we play.  She rebels and I crush her.  Usually with a few orgasms to humiliate her by pointing out that not only did she lose, its what she wanted in the first place.  Yesterday… that didn’t go as planned.  We were actually discussing a scene that had played out a little bit before and I made the remark that she loves it when I break down her walls.  She does.  She loves to build up walls like holding pain out and have me break through them.  She made a dismissive remark back and the game was on.  I grabbed her by her hair and shoved her down onto the bed and began to breathe softly in her ear.  Occasionally I’ll growl a little.  She likes that.  I whisper huskily into her ear, “I can break down any wall you have.  I helped you build every last one of them.  I know how to bring them down.  Don’t I?”.  She answered, “What’s mine is yours so I guess”.  Not the correct answer.  Especially the tone she uses.  After some back and forth she finally says yes, but the tone is still all wrong.  So I push her.  Hard.  And at the end of a very nasty lecture I tell her to say “No” in the correct tone.

Now that’s not the right word.  She asks for clarification and I freeze.  I swear to God, I had forgotten the original purpose of the scene.  For some reason I thought “No” was the correct response.  It wasn’t.  It forced me to back up to a point that the mood was broken.  That isn’t a pleasant experience for a Dom to go through.  At that point I can’t effectively go after my sub because I’m WAY too busy whipping myself for forgetting a single question that was kind of important to the scene at hand.  Don’t get me wrong, I understand why it happened.  I did entirely too much the day before and my brain is preoccupied muting pain so my memory is going to be crap.  It isn’t anything to panic over.  But its frustrating.  Oh so very frustrating.

I pride myself on knowing what is going to happen before it does.  I know how to take people who think the same way and put them on their heels and destroy all the forethought they put into an encounter making them react to me instead of the other way around.  I dictate how an encounter happens, not they.  Having that ability temporarily flee me wasn’t fun.  But I’m not going to let it consume me in any way.  I’m going to take it and make it a learning experience.  I’m going to come up with ways around it so that I can quickly regain my balance after stumbling like that and do it in a manner that doesn’t alter the flow of the scene.  But yeah…not exactly my greatest Dom moment ever.  Bleh.

  1. Teagan says:

    We have had this happen a couple of times as well. Yes, it is very frustrating. My Sir quickly follows it up with a spanking for “questioning”. It’s not a punishment spanking, per se, but more of one to help re-set the mood. We have laughed about it after the fact, but at the time, it’s all about the mood. Or a good portion of it anyway. :)

  2. Duality says:

    We figured out a way that if it happened again to redirect it. Basically play it off as a test to see if she was paying attention, and then for her to prove it to tell me the question I asked her. I’m fairly confident with me having something to fall back on now that if Grace giggled at the situation I would be able to get her attention back to the scene post-haste. But yeah, that threw me for a loop. Knowing is half the battle and all that.